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Hi. 🙂 How are you? How’s your mind doing?
In this post I wanted to address a certain phenomena that I have observed in soooo many people on this planet. And I have a feeling that it’s in everyone, but it seems to pick on those who are sensitive, kind hearted, or empathic the most (for reasons that are pretty obvious, to me). Of course, this is just my limited little human observation… I don’t want to convert people to my ‘beliefs’, I simply want to bring awareness to what I’ve experienced and maybe others will be able to relate.
Firstly, I’ll post a thing that I put on facebook a day or two after Robin Williams escaped from his meat suit…
“In light of Robin William’s death, I feel compelled to write about this thing that I have observed in myself… just in case anyone else can relate. A lot of people will think I am crazy, because their life experience won’t support what I have to report, and because we have been led by ‘doctors’ and ‘psychologists’ to believe that these experiences are ‘crazy’. Maybe I am… But define ‘crazy’, please. And is it a word which can encompass a multitude of symptoms, or should we look at each case a little more closely, instead of just simply assigning that label to it?
Ever since I was 13, I began having thoughts inside my head about how I should kill myself. The thoughts told me that my life sucked, it was never going to get better, and that there was no reason for me to exist. When life was fine and happy, the thoughts went away, but as soon as something negative happened (whether it was a big problem, or something not so big) these thoughts would flood my brain, telling me to kill myself. So I ended up listening and trying it a few times… Fully believing and accepting these thoughts as my own. And when they weren’t telling me to kill myself, they were suggesting other creative ways to harm myself… like cutting.
Well, I am 28 years old right now and I still have those thoughts… But I have discovered something interesting about them. I’ve learned that I don’t have to listen to them. And I’ve observed that these ‘thoughts’ are more like voices which have my voice. I really can’t claim them as my own any longer… Because I know in my soul that I do not want to kill myself or hurt myself… I want to love myself and make a beautiful life. and yet these voices still show up telling me I’m worthless, I need to just get it over with, and no one loves me anyway. WTF?!?! I honestly know that those are lies. So why is my mind feeding me these ‘thoughts’? It makes no sense. Also, since I’ve learned to tell the voices to F* off and I’ve began ignoring them, my mind has resorted to showing me pictures… movie quality pictures, of the many ways that I could kill myself… complete with all the graphic blood and gore that you’d find in a horror movie. And I can’t just will these pictures in my head to go away. I can’t think happy thoughts and make them leave. They play over and over on repeat for however long they want, and I’m forced to sit back and watch them and deny what they are showing me. That almost makes me feel crazy. Yet… I am not the only person who has reported these self destructive thoughts, voices, commands.
I’m not sure what’s going on here, but I’ll leave you with a few ideas… Our brains are basically electrical super computers running the machines which are our bodies. These computer machines are a house for our consciousness to dwell in and experience life down here. Well, we have managed to create simpler computers… and what has also come along with the whole computer technology that we’ve created? Viruses.
What if a virus has been created for our brains, which is meant to shut us down… to keep us from advancing to a level of achievement and consciousness in our short lifetimes, so that we do not upset the perfect, beautiful system that they have set up on this planet. A system of war, and hate, and consumerism, and dog eat dog…. and the few profiting off the lives of millions. Seriously, no one can tell me that there isn’t something terribly wrong in this world…
Anyway, I won’t say anymore about that stuff, because I’m not a hundred percent sure of what’s really happening…
All I know is that I’ve experienced these self destructive voices (which are NEVER positive) for most of my life, and now that I’m aware I can ignore them… It just makes me question what the bloody heck are they!?!?!
I truly do not know.”
Demons… Archons… Djinn… Forces of Darkness… Negative Mind Parasites…
Does anyone wonder why this concept is shared in pretty much
every religion, culture, and legend throughout the planet?
What the actual fuck is going on here???
Seriously, if you can’t see that SOMETHING is happening here…
then you’re swimming in an Egyptian river, as they say. 🙂
But really… there’s a not-so-nice force out there that seems to have it’s own agenda,
and it doesn’t seem to hold us humans in high regard.
I would even venture to say that we humans are tasty, energetic snacks to them.
Yum!
Sooo… what this force is, I cannot say for certain, because I just don’t know.
I have ideas… and I’m thankful for the people who have brought the whole Archon thing to light,
but I’m currently in a position where I just do not know.
I do have intuitive feelings about it, though.
All I know is that there is something inside of me who wants me dead, in a negative state of mind all the time,
or wants me so crazy and confused that I’m unable to love myself or others,
or see the beauty in myself, this world, or in others.
And it is NOT a psychological defect left over from childhood trauma, and it is NOT my ego…
These are actual voices and mental pictures which have nothing to do with how my spirit
actually feels about stuff.
Tricky, tricky bastards they are!
But of course, they’ve had a long time to perfect their techniques.
Yeah, so anyway… mental health. What does it mean to be mentally healthy?
Why are so many suffering from mental unhealthiness?
Well, we each have dark and light, yin and yang, good and evil in us.
It’s all part of this lovely game of separation and remembering who we really are.
Unfortunately, these beasties… these pests… have found a way to keep us from remembering.
They love to keep us…
~UNAWARE
~UNCONSCIOUS
~ATTACHED TO OUR PHYSICAL EGOS
~CONFUSED
~DEPRESSED
~DETACHED FROM OUR BODIES
~DETACHED FROM OUR SPIRIT
~UNBALANCED
~TRAPPED IN EXTREME DUALISTIC THINKING
So, if we were just coming here to evolve naturally and learn about the world around us… SURPRISE!!! Ain’t no balance in this place!
They’ve basically high-jacked our freewill and buried the good under a glass jar while pouring gasoline on the bad.
NO FAIR!!!
BUT… they are a part of Us… in a BIGGER perspective…
And this is just the story that we all have found ourselves in at the moment.
Soooo… how do we deal with their shit? Because it’s not like life doesn’t naturally come with its own shit to deal with, on top of what they’re doing to us.
Well, here’s what I’ve learned so far:
The first tool in the tool belt is AWARENESS. Being aware of who you truly are deeeeeep down. When all your atoms dissolve, what is left of You? Pure Consciousness… Pure Awareness. You are God, Creator, Everything… you’re just playing a game of forgetting who you are, so that you can remember again. You are LOVE! The whole of everything in existence… and nonexistence!!!
As long as you can keep this perspective of Yourself, then anything negative that the critters tell you about yourself or others can be easily dismissed as lies and bullshit.
Unfortunately, it’s hard to keep this perspective in the midst of the chaos of the mind and the physical… especially if we don’t practice.
So, if the Awareness thing doesn’t work, the next tool I go for is getting myself GROUNDED.
As a human who was born with their moon in Pisces… I’m not the most grounded individual. Actually, I think moon Pisces are considered to be the least grounded of the zodiac. Yay, lol. 🙂 But I’ve learned that BALANCE is soooooo very much important for a healthy being state, and even though I love to get lost in space… I’m also a part of the Earth, as well, and I have to make a conscious effort to bring myself down from the clouds if I want a healthy life. But… it totally works!!!
Physical Exercise has proven to naturally release happy chemicals in the brain.
Running… Swimming… Bike Riding… Dancing… Playing in Nature… Jump Roping… TRAMPOLINE ^_^
And even SEX!!! 😀 (masturbation!!!)
All, wonderful ways to get back in touch with your body.
We are Spirit AND we are BODY!
It’s not healthy to ignore one in favor of the other.
Walking barefoot on the grass has been said to be a good grounding tool… though I freak out when spiders crawl over my feet,
but I still do it, haha.
Even clapping, shaking your arms, wiggling your phalanges… these little things can help bring your
awareness down from your mind (where they try to mess with you)
and back into your body.
Being aware of your breathing is another cool way to get ‘out of your mind’.
Meditation is another tool that can help… so I’ve been told. 🙂
Lordy, I am quite sure that meditation would help me, but I just never seem to be consistent with it.
Some say that all meditation is is just bringing your awareness to the Present Moment,
which I actually try to do on a daily basis… no matter what I’m doing.
I’ve also recently become aware of a tactic that they like to use against me… Isolationism. I am a different kind of person… I don’t know many who are like me in real life. I’m also very sensitive to other people’s energies. So, I find my mind (maybe them) using these excuses as a way to keep me from being around other people. When, I know that even though I don’t see eye to eye with the friends and family that I do have, I still have fun when I’m around them.
Being around others can be a really positive thing for me. It’s also a really great distraction when I’m depressed. So why do I feel the need to constantly turn down invites to do things with people? Well, no more! Of course, I’m going to be honest with myself, and it’s okay if sometimes I really don’t feel like getting out or having people around, but if there’s no really good reason for me to turn down that experience, then my new attitude is just say ‘Yes’.
BALAAAAANCE is KEY!!!
Too much stimulation is NOT healthy.
Too much isolation is NOT healthy.
Learning healthy Boundaries is also something that I feel is a healthy tool for interacting with other humans.
But I just began studying this, so I don’t have much info to share. Google does though, just ask them!
Learning to find my own boundaries and balance in this life is definitely an ongoing process for me. And learning to be aware of my inner world so that I can see when they are trying to infect me is also a work in progress. 🙂
But I can totally see how far I’ve come,
so yay me!!!
And to anyone who is reading this… You’ve come such a long way, too!!!!
CONGRATULATIONS!!! YOU ARE AMAAAZING!!! ^_^
Keep it up!
YOU CAN DO IT!!!
I BELIEVE IN YOU!!!
Because You are Me, and I am You, and everything is going to be OK! 😀
ExpansivePsyche 