Truth… and the seeking of such…
has led me down an interesting path. Definitely the road less traveled.
Drama… all the drama, lol. How they love their extremes. Gotta keep that energy rotating… so they can slurp it up. Nom nom, dream world.
Isolation… alone in my head. The smoke and mirrors can take on so many distracting forms, so that it’s nearly impossible for the ‘normal’ human to become aware of what’s really going on. The humans also have a thing inside them that rejects change… and since truth equals change, the truth is a threat to their comfortableness… which makes me a threat to their comfortableness… which is why I’m alone, lol.
Language… such a barrier. I already have a difficult enough problem when it comes to transforming my vast, all encompassing, abstract thoughts into linear words. Control the mind prison by hiding the keys. Great. Have to rely on keeping my energy high… maybe others will unconsciously react to that. Because I sure don’t make much sense when trying to help others verbally. Though, I’d dearly love to help heal them. All I’ve ever wanted was to help others in life.
Awareness… being aware of all the shit going on inside my head. And remaining aware. Blindly going about life in robot mode is so much easier. If I’m to be of any help to myself or others, I must be able to be, at least, in somewhat control of my thoughts and energies. Or, if not in control, then being able to transform them into different, more useful thoughts and energies is a huge thing. Alchemy and all that.
Humor… it’s what has kept me from self-destructing, so far. Laughter is definitely a powerful tool. Especially, when I look at my life and how truly alone I am. Sure, I know there are others out there like me. But they do not manifest in my immediate reality. Truth is, I just don’t fit in with anyone in my circle. Something I have to accept… and try to not let lower my vibes. Because that’s when the nasties like to grab hold of me. Nope… gonna laugh it off and keep going. 🙂
The desire to help, heal, and teach burns bright within me… yet, I currently observe that I lack the skills to effectively do these things. Something I gotta work on. Sigh. Life is too much work, lol. But what else do I have to do, while I’m here?
ExpansivePsyche 